Tuesday, February 12, 2008

He believes

I shiver, as I pull blankets up to my nose.
It's been the same every night for years
I have "goosebumps" from head to toe
..Yet I am not in the cold
..I am in..
fear.

I thought I could do it
I thought I was strong
I thought I could make it...

I guess I was WRONG.

It drives me to think things I normally wouldn't,
It wants me to do things I know that I shouldn't...
It changes who I am,
Alters personality
It drives me to hate the one person
who can truly stop this thinking..
ME.

I thought I could do it
I thought I was strong
I thought I could make it...

I guess I was WRONG.

I now live in fear, every day and each night
I feel I'm going to lose this fight..
If it's a battle of willpower,
COUNT ME OUT.
I'm losing it now
I just want to SHOUT!

I thought I could do it
I thought I was strong
I thought I could make it...

I guess I was WRONG.

In the depths of despair
I remember a song..
"Walk tall, You're a daughter.."
.. I know where I belong.

He believes I can do this
He believes I am strong
He believes I can make it...

..But can God be WRONG?

Whether win or lose,
I'll still try my best
I'll give it my all;
& let God do the rest.

I think I can do this
I think I am strong
I think I can make it...

But I could be WRONG.

Each day, Every second
is a gift from above
If I reach up my hand,
I can grasp his love.

I think I can do this
I think that I'm strong
I THINK I can make it...

..But I could be WRONG.

Together we fight
Until only WE stand
I know I CAN recover
If I just reach up my hand.

I believe I can do this
I BELIEVE I am strong
I believe I can make it...

...I could always be WRONG...

He tells me I can do this
Gently lifts up my head
And now I remember
The blood that he shed.

I know I can do this.
I know I am strong.
I know I can make it

..because God's NEVER WRONG.